… as the saying goes, is Good for one’s Soul.
Having my normal lie-in in bed in the morning and doing my usual ‘thinking’ i came up with one of those ‘A-ha’ moments, or, as BT my Filipina friend recently put it – a Kaya Pala moment, when things suddenly all came together to a point of ‘enlightenment.
i was thinking, as i frequently do, about how a small pathetic insignificant ‘ant’ like me could ever have hope of having a REAL relationship with the God of the Universe who is mostly about Spirit while i am completely (well almost!) 😉 of the physical flesh.
The thought ‘confess your sins’ came up from something i had been reading lately as, if we do this, Jesus promises we will be forgiven (as long as we don’t sin against the Holy Spirit) and forgiveness leads us to acceptance and receiving of the same Holy Spirit within us (or so i seem to understand it currently).
Ok then – i’ll give that a go and see what happens: – “i am Lazy!” (and i know from lessons learned from Scripture and elsewhere that slothfulness does not bring great reward and that ‘the Devil finds work for idle hands’)
No – make that “i have the sin of idleness” because whatever i truly am – it is not solely idle.
Then the thought comes to me: Being idle is not good for me, i need some exercise to keep my body healthy and in best condition for as long as needs be and it does nothing to improve my life either and is rather wasteful of all i have been blessed with – so why do i do it?
Answer – because the Truth is… i quite like doing little. i’ve done a lot of ‘work’ in my time and found mostly that what i get out of it rarely exceeds what i put into it or what others actually get from it and it mostly makes me tired and worn out so, there is not a strong risk/effort reward ratio that i have ever personally witnessed.
Whereas, i do quite like lying in bed and thinking. About ‘things’.
Then another Truth struck me: i am a little bit ‘afraid’ – of what i might have to ‘face’ if i give up being idle! 😯 More hard work!
i want to ‘keep’ my ‘easy life’ – i don’t wish to ‘lose’ it – to give it up.
24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.
25 For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.
26 For what is a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?’ Matt 16
Then the final thought hit me – what should you be MORE afraid of – losing your own ‘life’…. or losing His?
Should i fear this world and what it ‘might’ bring me? Or should i above all Fear Him and what i have to lose by being idle in Spirit?
For me – that’s a ‘no brainer’.
And that’s more than enough ‘work’ for one day 😉
Time to get up now.
Anyone wanna confess while they have the chance?